The Beginning

The beginning always starts of different for others. For some it starts out as a harsh time for others it starts out exciting. My beginning starts out in between, going through a big rough patch in my life and being excited of starting a new life. Moving away from my past in Reno, I've grown to love the streets of Boise. This city reminds me of my old home but 100 times better. No drive by shootings on your street, I haven't even seen one piece of graffiti except for the beaten train cars that shoot by on the old tracks. Boise is just beautiful too, it seems like it has more nature than Reno ever had. The people here are good people, you don't have to second guess them. They're nice and it seems they have strong morals. I still have more to explore in my new city but I already know that my new life will be wonderful.

Reno is beautiful in it's own sense but it's not home anymore. When we go back to Reno to visit as soon as we hit the outskirts I get sick because of my past and what I've done but with God I know that past is washed away once I do get baptized. But on with Reno, I love the place where I grew up but I absolutely hate it. It's grimey streets aren't to be enjoyed unless you enjoy a beaten downtown. The casinos are dirty and smell smoke everywhere. It seems like everyone smokes cigarettes there and its a party town. It's all I hear about anymore from friends living there. You never feel safe anymore. When going down Wells Avenue you literally have to watch your back when you're driving. It's that scary. Also it doesn't feel diverse, it just looks like they're a ton of Hispanics (which there is nothing wrong with but sometime you want diversity). The people in Reno, except for the very few I trust outside family, you have to second guess them. You never know if they have their own secret agenda against you. You hear how there's problems in everyone's life and how they all just either do drugs or drink their problems away, becoming numb. It's all parties and how drunk they get now too, or how high they get. It's not a great way to live and it will never be that way.

Life isn't about that honestly. It's about exploring the world and what's in it. It's about finding yourself and being who you are. It's about meeting new people and gaining new friends and acquaintances for the rest of your life. Life in reality is about discovery, to discover yourself, the people around you, the nature that surrounds us and even our urban landscape. For me also it's being the woman God wants me to be and standing up for what's right and strengthening my relationship with God, family, my church family, and my friends. I only have one life on Earth. This is my beginning; starting out anew and being the person, the woman I am supposed to be.